Posts by fragrant cane

I was part of a huge top-secret experiment

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just had a flashback i thought i would share.. i distinctly remember, when i was only about 8 or 10 years old, suddenly having what one might call an epiphany.. i thought that my entire life and existence was part of some huge social science experiment (of course i didn't use this language when i was 10 years old, but am simply trying to use the correct words to describe my childish feelings).. i felt that my parents weren't really my parents, but were part of the stimulii to provoke a reaction from me; a reaction which was intensely studied by unseen scientists who were watching me, 24/7.

i speculated about whether or not my school friends were "in on it" of if that was "real world" and only my home life was part of the study.. here's the kicker.

i thought that the whole jw religion was the centerpiece of the experiment.

fragrant cane

Oh wow man, the Truman show! I remember being really scared of demons when I was little, having heard all the stories of demons attacking. I wondered if I could shout "Jehovah" if they covered up my mouth...

I used to get these dreams when I was little. I'd be at a meeting, and everyone would be shouting this drone hum that would overpower me and make me die and wake up. Horrible. And another that I was in school and really scared and lost and if I tried to scream I couldn't breathe and couldn't run because it was like swimming through treacle.